A Coversation with GP and Tessa
Jan 28, 2019 16:59:13 GMT -8
Post by lips on Jan 28, 2019 16:59:13 GMT -8
A Coversation with GP and Tessa
via AIM
April 15th 1998
Tess469: nice DELETE
gppays: I didn't delete anything tessaTess469: someone did
gppays: Are you referring to your post from last night?
AB deleted that
Tess469: no - recent
Tess469: YOU PUNKS
gppays: or Bashful....they are the only two that have
delete access
Tess469: keep it up
gppays: I haven't deleted any posts for sometime....a
couple of months actually
gppays: me keep it up?
Tess469: CAN YOU?
gppays: I just sent you email regarding your bag...have
you taken the time to read it?
Tess469: I haven't received it yet
gppays: Trust me Tessa....I can keep up with anyone
when it comes to a battle of the minds
gppays: well.....according to UPS the package left
Denver today at 1:31 P.M. and is enroute
Tess469: I'll call them
gppays: do that...I just verified it not fifteen minutes
ago
Tess469: I'll see for myself
gppays: tell you what....go call them and check on
it....I'll leave IM up until you do
Tess469: you are a punk
Tess469: IT JUST LEFT LAST NIGHT FOR THE
VERY FIRST TIME EVER
Tess469: why have you been fucking with me?
Tess469: YOU BASTARD
Tess469: It had BETTER get here before the 4 days
are up
Tess469: I have FUCKING HAD IT WITH YOU
Tess469: You NEVER sent it
Tess469: to begin with
Tess469: You censor me on your God-COMPLEX Board
Tess469: Don't you fucking dare think you can stop me
from saying whatever I please
gppays: Tessa,
Tess469: WHAT
gppays: I said that it was released yesterday from K.C. ....I told
you that yesterday
gppays: you said it was an invalid shipping number and I said it
was valid
Tess469: you never sent it before last night
Tess469: ever
Tess469: it never went anywhere
gppays: I sent it back when I said I did.......I have no idea how
it got routed to florida
gppays: well I did Tessa, and nothing you say is going to change
reality
Tess469: what was THAT tracking number then?
gppays: The one I gave you the first time was the one it was
originally shipped on
gppays: Once a tracking number is used it cannot be re-used
Tess469: you are full of shit
gppays: I had to issue them a new one
Tess469: WHAT WAS IT?
gppays: whatever Tessa all I have to know is that I did do what
I said I was going to do
gppays: it is the first one I have you
gppays: Let me pose a question here if I may?
Tess469: what?
gppays: Tell pay me why would I want to keep your bag?
gppays: What useful purpose would it serve?
Tess469: power and control trip?
Tess469: why do you pay for the Board?
gppays: I'm not into control or power
Tess469: Power and control God-complex
Tess469: Yeah you are
gppays: because I happen to enjoy the board
Tess469: Take a good look at yourself - then tell me it
isn't true
gppays: you have no idea what I spend on that board right
now....less than you might think....anyway what the fuck is money
anyway? I have plenty and don't necessarily need to worry about
what I spend it on
Tess469: Everyone loves to judge me - but they can't
take an open-eyed look at themselves
Tess469: hypocrites
gppays: I have taken a good look at myself Tessa....I do so
everytime I step into a court room and everytime I get up in the
morning
Tess469: yeah yeah yeah - you ain't in a courtroom
Tess469: and I doubt seriously that you doi
gppays: When have I judged you? The only thing I have EVER
said is that you need to quit using drugs
gppays: doi?
Tess469: see whores can't TYPE
Tess469: Happy?
Tess469: That make you feel superior?>
Tess469: I am not on drugs
Tess469: you haven't a clue as to what the drugs I do
- do to me
gppays: Tessa, do you think I'm happy about the fact your upset
with me? If that is the case then you are seriously mistaken
gppays: They certainly effect your mood swings
gppays: You have admitted as much
Tess469: The only reason you are unhappy about me
being upset with you is that fact that I am a Royal Pain
In the Ass when I am pissed
Tess469: They do not
Tess469: PREGNANCY did
gppays: You had mood swings before your pregnancy
gppays: but be that as it may, I have not gotten one iota of
enjoyment out of you being pissed
Tess469: you should
gppays: As for you being a pain in the ass....well so are a lot of
other people, and that doesn't prevent me from going about my
normal business
gppays: I should be happy about you being pissed? Why?
Tess469: I'm actaully paying attention to you
Tess469: that might be the motivation
Tess469: actually Mr. Spell Right
gppays: My motivation or yours?
Tess469: Yours
gppays: I'm sorry if you don't like my english its a result of a
lousy upbringing
Tess469: We may as well end this conversation - I am
fucking with you intentionally - and it might get nasty
gppays: Tessa, I'm not so shallow that I need to piss someone
off just to get some attention
gppays: If I want attention that bad I can always pay for it
gppays: I'm well aware that you are fucking with me
intentionally
Tess469: Are these digs you are writing making you
happy?
gppays: Do you consider me a total idiot?
gppays: I'm not digging you
Tess469: I can always PAY for it?
Tess469: shallow need for attention?
gppays: If I needed it that bad yes I COULD PAY for it that
doesn't mean that I will?
gppays: I don't need attention, I happen to enjoy being single
and have for a long time
Tess469: it's a subconscious slam on whores
Tess469: yeah right
gppays: good grief, I'm not slamming anyone and I don't get
into the subconcious issues anyway, not my area of expertise
Tess469: mine
Tess469: street-wise psychology
gppays: So you playing a subconcious mind game then?
Tess469: I am analyzing your subconscious
Tess469: and it ain't pretty
gppays: I have no concious to start with therefore it would be
hard to analyze the sub part
gppays: I believe that those were YOUR words at one time
Tess469: My words?
Tess469: expand on that
gppays: Referring to me
gppays: I just did, you were referring to me
gppays: I'll let you in on a little secret about lawyers Tessa
Tess469: This is going to get nasty - let's let this be
gppays: There's nothing to get nasty about, I agreed with you; I
have no concious
gppays: I am an attorney, and therefore I have no relative
concious; I'm willing to do whatever it takes to win. I don't care
about the client, the law, right or wrong, the truth is only a matter
of what I consider it.
gppays: That is the one thing about lawyers that will never ever
change
gppays: They don't care about anybody but themselves. They
couldn't give a damn about what is right or what is wrong, its all
about winning and winning no matter what the cost
gppays: No comment?
Tess469: I will always win over you - and I don't have
to change TRUTH to do it
Tess469: I am a stand-up person
gppays: In your case, I haven't change any truth and there is no
reason to do so.
Tess469: yeah right
Tess469: it's damage control
gppays: Tessa, I'm not into damage control; there's no need.
I'm going to continue doing what I do regardless of what happens
Tess469: either you have or you should realize that if
I believe you are lying to me I will fuck with you
Tess469: I have nothing to hide - that is the way I
design my life - therefore you cannot hurt me
Tess469: although you are wide open
gppays: Tessa, I have had the best of the best fuck with me do
you think that telling me something I already know is going to
effect me to the extent that you think?
Tess469: I doubt it
Tess469: but it will bring me great satisfaction
Tess469: and I am self-centered
gppays: ok so you have gotten your self-satisfaction now why
not just let it go? Consider it a win in your win-loss column
gppays: You say you are self centered?
Tess469: I did not say I have achieved satisfaction
Tess469: Everyone should be
gppays: If that is what you are saying then we have something
in common
Tess469: to an extent
gppays: Well then at least we have cleared the air on that issue.
gppays: And what would your satisfaction be Tessa if I may be
so bold as to ask?
Tess469: Why are you attempting to agree on
anything?
Tess469: I GET MY CLOTHES
gppays: I'm not attempting anything, I'm just stating a fact
Tess469: AND DO NOT HAVE SOMEONE LYING TO
ME - AS THOUGH I WERE A FEEBLE MINDED FOOL
gppays: well now that you know they are in transit and I
certainly cannot have them brought back you have them
Tess469: I HATE PEOPLE LYING TO ME
Tess469: I HATE TO BE JERKED AROUND
SENSELESSLY
gppays: regardless of what you may think Tessa, and I have no
desire to waste my time attempting to change your mind, I didn't
lie to you. Would not have served any useful purpose.
Tess469: So you say
gppays: May I ask another question?
Tess469: go for it
gppays: Do you think that prior to all of this I was aware of
your temper?
Tess469: That is not for me to judge
Tess469: I have no idea what you thought
gppays: Let me ask it another way; had I not seen your temper
and what you were capable of prior to all of this
Tess469: You have had opprotunity to see it - whether
or not you saw it for what is actually is is not for me
to judge
gppays: You have displayed your temper several times in the
past on the board correct?
Tess469: I know what you are getting at - stop talking
to me like a child
gppays: I'm not talking to you like a child, merely asking a
simple question
gppays: What am I getting at then?
Tess469: That you obviously know what a dangerous
person I am when I am angered and therefore would
not have wanted to solicit that wrath upon yourself
Tess469: and furthermore
Tess469: in keeping with that mentality
Tess469: would have made every effort to assure the
safe arrival of my clothes
Tess469: so as not to arrouse my anger
Tess469: arouse
Tess469: I just don't buy it
gppays: Wrong
gppays: Of course that would be a valid argument
Tess469: so just state your case Straightforward
Tess469: talk straight to me
Tess469: I am a straight-shooter
Tess469: I don't have time for bullshit
gppays: Tessa, it really doesn't matter anymore what I think or
what I say; you have decided that I am the enemy here and
nothing I do or say is going to change that.
Tess469: I am glad you recognize that
gppays: I have never attacked you either in private or in person
as I haven't with anyone else on the board or elsewhere in my
life.
gppays: And won't it isn't my style.
Tess469: Want me to tell you about Damage Control
techniques for this conversation?
gppays: Tessa, I'm not playing damage control here couldn't
care less about damage control, I'm not a politician
Tess469: You should care
Tess469: see, the more you try to validate your
arguement
Tess469: the angrier I get
Tess469: See, what I have is tenacity and heart
gppays: Why? what could I possibly do to stop you from
disclosing my personal information? I'll tell you - NOTHING.
Therefore there is not way to control anything
Tess469: that's all there is to me
Tess469: I will forsake everything to achieve what I
deem necessary
Tess469: everything - being ME
Tess469: My comfort
Tess469: My sfatey
Tess469: safey
Tess469: Damn - I can't spell now
Tess469: Ha ha ha
Tess469: so....... that makes me dangerous
Tess469: better to leave us people alone
Tess469: You sit in your safe world now boy.....
Tess469: ok?
Tess469: with your walls of comfort
gppays: You call my life comfortable? I wish that were true
Tess469: you have no real dangers
Tess469: Living on the edge is unfathomable to your
lifestyle
Tess469: go back - and sit your butt in a comfy chair
and push papers, boy
Tess469: Leave the real living to us
gppays: Living on the edge? Tessa, I spent enought time in the
past DESTROYING lives that one could easily consider that as
living on the edge
Tess469: yeah yeah yeah
Tess469: it's all papers and arguements to you
Tess469: none is real
Tess469: none is your life
Tess469: that is living vicariously
gppays: I personally wouldn't call having some angry wife
sticking a gun in someones face as just living vicariously
Tess469: not yours?
Tess469: not your wife?
Tess469: not your face?
gppays: Yes my face, an ex-wife of a former client. Scared the
living shit out of me. As in the old saying "Hell hath no fury like
a scorned woman".
Tess469: have you ever expressed raw emotion?
Tess469: besides in a Courtroom or a document?
Tess469: that is a vicarious incident
gppays: See that is what you don't know about me. Yes I have,
and were it not for someone else intervening I certainly could
have thrown my entire life away. I am happy that I didn't as in
the end it would not have been worth it
Tess469: You are clueless
gppays: Looking down the barrel of a gun and knowing that if
that woman decides to pull the trigger my life will come to a very
quick end is not vicarious
Tess469: You are clueless
Tess469: you were a victim of circumstances
Tess469: you had done nothing to illicit those emotions
or express any
Tess469: you are the type that would cry to Momma
Tess469: You have done nothing - seen nothing my boy
gppays: Victim of circumstances? Yes, I suppose your right -
my own circumstances. I purposely went out of my way to take
everything that she had in life, purposely wanted to ruin her just
for the sole purpose of winning
Tess469: and lived vicariously
Tess469: it had no REAL effect upon you
gppays: I never said that I have seen everything or done
everything and you know what Tessa, I don't care to; it doesn't
matter to me.
gppays: I don't need to live continually on the edge in order to
receive gratification from life.
Tess469: or your comfy little life - living with papers
and solid cushy walls around you
Tess469: the only way that you can justify your life is
to change others
gppays: You would have been correct a few years ago, not any
more
Tess469: you actually believe that........ *sigh*
gppays: With change meaning destroying others
gppays: I don't believe it Tessa, I know it
Tess469: It's sad
Tess469: you should be me
Tess469: looking in
Tess469: sad, sad, sad
Tess469: On an off-note
Tess469: why haven't you Banned SHIVA?
Tess469: because whores are easier to ban?
gppays: Again what real purpose would that serve? So, I can go
back to all my yuppy friends and say that I have seen it from the
other side and live it up as though I've done something important
in life?
Tess469: I just think that you have a pathetic life
Tess469: In my view
Tess469: doesn't mean it is
Tess469: That's just me
gppays: Who have I banned Tessa? I have banned only two
people since the board was started, one is back and she is still
welcomed back, the other will never return
Tess469: Shiva needs his ass kicked off the board
Tess469: he antagonizes people
gppays: Certainly you can have your opinion and I see no
reason to try to affect a change it it; but I would consider my
life as being pretty robust.
Tess469: and just posted twice
Tess469: LOL - robust
Tess469: Ha ha ha ha ha
gppays: I thought you of all people would like that one
gppays: Sounded pretty good if I do say so myself.
Tess469: Robust
Tess469: ha ha ha
Tess469: Yeah right
Tess469: Ha ha ha
gppays: Shiva was banned for a day and I haven't been back to
see what his posts have been since that day.
gppays: Do tell me what he has said or done?
Tess469: Just stupid meaningless shit
Tess469: Check the board
gppays: As if you and I haven't posted stupid meaningless shit
in the past.
gppays: posting stupid meaningless shit doesn't get one banned.
gppays: At least not initially
gppays: If I banned every person who posted stupid
meaningless shit EVERYONE would be gone
Tess469: Ha ha ha ha ha
gppays: I thought it was funny too!
Tess469: You know damn well he is just there to
antagonize - but then again - what's wrong with that?
Tess469: At least he gets people moving
gppays: Apparently you thought it was wrong since you said a
moment ago that he needed to be banned
Tess469: He does need to be banned
Tess469: but then again - what the hell?
Tess469: see - I don't have a problem with him posting
Have You Had Your Balls Licked
gppays: AB, has the authority to ban someone if they are out of
line
Tess469: fuck - I like shocking people too
Tess469: I like to stress certain words when I talk to
people
Tess469: WHORE
Tess469: DRUGGIE
Tess469: METH
Tess469: LoL
gppays: Why? Does it make you feel important or something?
Tess469: Nope
Tess469: I just like to shock people
Tess469: Ha ha ha
gppays: Like to shock people, hmmmm I guess that could
entertain some however, it just isn't my cup of tea.
Tess469: Read what I posted to him
gppays: Boy, now that is REAL shocking.
Tess469: oh ha ha
Tess469: I think it's funny
gppays: I can see the humor in it.....just didn't think it was that
shocking.
Tess469: Oh - I didn't say I posted anything
SHOCKING
Tess469: of course if I did wrap them up real tight
and nail him in the balls - it would be funnier
gppays: anyway, I need to get going and actually go out and
spend some of that stolen money I got off some poor old lady.
Tess469: whore
Tess469: at least I provide pleasure
gppays: We're all whores in a way Tessa. Mine just happens to
normally keep people out of trouble, or in the case of others get
them into more.
Tess469: You are worse than me
Tess469: Whore
Tess469: I have ethics
Tess469: Cha's coming home soon
gppays: My ethics are the canon of ethics, which I can honestly
say that I have never violated once in my life
Tess469: I have to get moving too
gppays: Enjoy your evening
Tess469: of course
Tess469: I'm getting laid - you?
gppays: Already did
Tess469: good